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Is it sad when I can hear the English voices in my head? XDD

As we know it... I'm bi, right? Right! So... I'm thinking to myself, "Why is homosexuality bombarded by Christians? They're just as human as everyone else is" So why are some Christians bashing on homosexuality? Because... they think that "gays" are evil! D< The ones I detest the most are Mormons! Why? Because they think homosexuals are inhuman! That and I hate homophobes. :P Whoever is a homophobe, they are the people I detest the most! (I use detest because I used hate too much! XDD) So the next time people wanna bash yaoi and yuri, I'll make sure that they get a reality check! >P But REALLY!!! Why do girls watch yaoi anyway? Yaoi is just plain guy sex! I prefer to watch shounen-ai myself... With a touch of yaoi! :D If I could watch yuri, I would... But I'm stuck with watching shoujo-ai! :) Maybe this year, I'll go to the yuri panel just to see what they have!!! =D Oo! Maybe I'll go as Utena!!! =D Or better yet... MICHIRU~!!! Gee, I wonder where I got THAT idea from? XDDDD MAN, I'm too~ into lesbians now! XDD Either way, I'm tilting towards being a lesbian myself! ^_^ But, I gotta go now before I get some hate mail from the straight community!! BAAAAI~~!

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This is priceless! XDDD

Yesterday, I was involved in an accident! It's a traumatizing experience! It's something I don't want to experience again... :( My whole day started with an arguement and ended with an accident... :( I'm actually pretty lucky that I'm even walking or talking at the moment! I was listening to some piano music and this black car was coming my way... So I tried to avoid him and he hit me straight on! So, I ended up spinning to a ditch! It really scared the shit out of me!! I was so scared that I was balling my eyes out! I was also afraid that my dad was gonna yell at me because the guy took out the front of my car! Other than some bruises, I'm alright.. But I've been emotional scarred! (T^T) It feels like a nightmare!! But yet, the nightmare was very real! I guess it's never going away! But thankfully, everybody gave me some moral support... Matt was the first! :) I'm really thankful that I'm even alive at all! But I'm going to be scared to drive for a little while.. Well... Jyaa ne!

Sorry about the long lag there, folks!! I'm currently watching the subbed version of Gurren Lagann! My favorite character(s) out of that series so far is Kamina and Yoko! (*O*) Simon reminds me too much of Amuro Ray and it's REALLY annoying!! (>.<) I think I'm on episode 3 right now! :) It's funny as hell!! Kamina is a really cool character and I can't wait to see the English dub!! I wanna see how well it turned out in English! (^_^) Well... I'm doing alright! I got an awesome room-mate! Yada yada yada... Over time, my dad told me some heartbreaking news... After 24 years of putting up with each other, they're finally seperating.. :( It's just sadden because I've felt like I've had a normal life and it's finally gone. Sad, isn't it? But at the same time, I've had this coming too.. I guess that I shouldn't pout about it!! lol Well.. I'm gone for now!! See ya!

Guten Tag!! ich heiße Heather!! ich bin sympathisch und lustig!! Tehe! I'm still learning.. But I try.. At least I'm not some big pop star in Germany right now! XDD But... I just thought I'd show my progression through this blog.. It's a slow progress, but none the less, I'm getting there!! =D "Das ist doch nicht dein Ernst????" (Hey, my book has it as "You can't be serious?") lol

Tschüss!! (^O^)/

「Hikaru」

At first, I was angry because my siblings can't learn from me.. Now I feel horrible because I feel like I've upset Emily because of something I did.. I'll have to admit, when it comes to the truth, I feel like I've hurt people because they can't take it. What am I to do?? It's either I tell somebody what's been on my mind, or they're hurt because I'm telling the truth.. I love 'em, but I feel like sometimes, they made a terrible mistake. I'm sorry if someone's upset at me because they can't tell the person they love the truth! I can't help it but to be just a tad upset.. Yes, I'm happy for them, but I want them to have a better life!! That's all I need to say.. Sorry, I felt like I had to speak my mind..

WOW!! Like the room-mate couldn't get ANY WORSE!! But unfortunately, they did.. My room-mate and I got into this BAD heated argument last night.. All because I was on the phone.. Jeez, like she has NOTHING else to bitch at me about.. -_- I mean, what can I do? Act stupid???? I was raised by VERY tough parents who taught me to take control my life and every time I TRY to stand up for my believes, she pushes me down like I'm not any of her concern at all! So.. After that, I grabbed my cordless phone and tried to talk on that to Matt and Janelle.. She unplugged THAT too! D< I mean.. WTF??? That was VERY rude of her to do that while I was trying to calm down! Not to mention that she's VERY old fashioned. Someone needs to tell her that she needs to adapt to what I do in this room because I'm ok with what she does.. But she's NOT ok with what I do??? That's bullshit! Total bullshit! D< That's why you have a ROOM-MATE!!!! You deal with THEIR routine and try to fit yourself in THEIRS! Not the other way around... She's failed to realize that and she's never gonna find a room-mate to fit her schedule in... Tsk tsk.. I thought college would be more mature than high school.. I was proven wrong! <.<; I guess even people at around my age act like children.. But I did my fair share of acting like a child... But that's only when I'm angry. What she's doing to me is VERY childish and immature!! Hopefully, we get a room-mate remediation soon because I can't put up with her crap anymore. Rachel, hopefully, you'll learn to embrace multi-tasking.. Why? Because that's why busy women are suppose to do. ~end of rant~

皆さん。。I feel terrible right now. This morning, my room-mate was giving me some trouble.. So I put on my robe, grabbed my stuff and stormed out of my room. So, I did what I wanted to do today and this lady told me that I should go talk to someone.. But unfortunately, I will talk to them tomorrow to see what I can do. :) I still feel a bit angry, but I'm starting to feel better. ^_^ BESIDES!! If I wanted someone to nag me at every hand, I would of stayed home and listen to my dad bitch all day! But this, I can NOT tolerate any longer!!!! I mean, I can understand that she's uncomfortable with me changing in front of her.. But to the point where she's pushing it is just taking it too far.. I mean.. It's my room too, bitch! DX So.. get over it.

I can't seem to focus on school! Ever since February, I've lost focus on school (which is REALLY important or my parents are gonna SHUN me). If I mess up, my dad's gonna bitch and bitch at me for screwing up. I hate being me right now because of my screw up. :( I need to call that lady that contacted me!! >.< I keep forgetting to do that!!! But I ask myself.. "What the hell is wrong with me?" What did I do to loose focus on what's important in my life??? I feel sad about this whole thing.. I screw up and EVERYBODY'S on my ass!! If I screw up, I'm gonna lay in my bed, crying because I did screw up! I know my mom's gonna try to support me.. My dad even said to me that if I screw this up again, I'm on my own. Now I'm scared to screw this up because my dad's scary! =( I just don't know what to do anymore.. That's all I can say.

Well.. I've been feeling out of the blue for the last 2-3 days (or maybe this past week)! I might be catching something because I could NOT get out of bed for the past 2 days! I mean.. Geez, I feel crappy! (T-T) Other than that, I'll be fine soon! :) Right now, I'm just feeling lightheaded.. @_@ Maybe I need to sleep some more.. Either way, I hope to feel better!! ^^ バイバイ！

Oh my god.. I thought I was gonna cry! XDD I'm so excited for MTAC because I found out not too long ago that JYB is coming to MTAC! Now.. I'm trying to calm myself down after that moment! (lol) Right now, I'm pretty calm... But I'm excited at the same time! :) I'm listening to my all-time favorite Ayu song "Dolls"! I love this song because it's so serene. ^_^ Other than that, I'm fangirling a little bit! So, I'll talk to you kiddies later! :)

Yesterday was a stressful day.. But I'm trying to make the best of it! :) All I can say is that I need some sleep (at least for a little while)!! Phew! I need to just relax and not let school get the better of me.. I mean.. COME ON!!! APSU is home of the arrogant bitches (in exception for some people)!! DX But oh well! n_n I'm gonna make this my last semester at APSU because they gave me too much shit this year! So next semester, I'm heading back to Columbia for the fall and following spring semester. :) Wish me luck this year! ;D Bai!

<3 hikaru

Well.. Yesterday, I got an email from my dad saying my dog Goofy passed away yesterday. It shocked me that someone as sweet as he is died. So I did the only thing I could do and that was I grieved over him... I mean, I was depressed as hell and I was on the phone with Matt when I heard the news. If it wasn't for him, I would be REALLY depressed and crying my eyes out right now. I mean.. Wow.. I am depressed, but not really depressed. I'm listening to "untitled ~for her~" by Ayumi Hamasaki on her latest album GUILTY. He was one of my favorite dogs and most of the time, I regret being so hard on him. Other than that, I just want a shoulder to cry on.. That's all I ask for..

The thing that I don't get is why in the hell are people getting married at a younger age?? I mean, I understand if it wasn't planned. But to plan it before you turn 21 is a little rash if you ask me. <.<>.< Maybe I'm just too old fashioned. ^^;; On the other hand, I feel so depressed that I could cry because my boyfriend needed a hand and I let him down. :( So.. What am I to do now? I wish I could be strong.. But I'll try to get over it sometimes! :) Someday, I will.. But for now, I'm just going to leave this blog alone before I get chased by some angry mobs! XDD バイバイ～！

Let me ask a question.. Do you believe in Santa Claus? Let's say that I do, but in a different way! :) I believe that Santa does exist! :) He exists in every one of us and this is something I learned 2 years ago in a Leadership workshop. ^_^ I believe that there is a Santa in every one of us and that we're sharing goodwill towards men! :) But the true question is this.. "Does man believe in oneself?" Merry Christmas and have a happy new year!! ^_^

What a random title! Geez, what am I coming up with? XDD ANYWAY!! It's hard to believe that Christmas is 2 days away! O_O I mean.. It feels like December has flown by pretty fast! NO!! I take that back! This whole year has flown by pretty damn fast! D: I mean.. It still feels like the beginning of December.. But I just realized that it's getter closer to Christmas! HURRY, MATT AND PAT'S PRESENTS! DX Well.. Since it's 5 AM, I can say that yesterday was a pretty awesome day (until I got sick, but I'm saving the details). :D I got a promise ring (just like I wanted to begin with)! This one is the one where the thought REALLY counts and I'm really happy that it's simple and silver! :) But the biggest shocker of my day was that most of Matt's family was really worried about me when I did get sick! =O Can I say that I'm truly blessed? XD Well.. It's true. ^_^ I'm truly blessed to be dating the greatest guy of my life and I hope to marry him someday. :) For now, I'm going to stop before I make myself cry! XDD バイバ～イ！！！

Dear Journal,
I'm dealing with an emotional time right now.. First of, I'm worried about Matt since he's really sick and has been dealing with it all this week. :( He tells me that he'll be fine, but I worry that he's gonna die from what he has. (u_u) I guess I can say that worrying about him is stressing me out and I haven't eaten very much. What should I do??
~Hikaru

January:
Today is January 1st, 2007. Horrah for me, since I can finally get that idiotic year called 2006 behind me! I can finally hold my head high without ANY regrets whatsoever! I'll try to behave too, Haruka (asweetermelody)! ;) Well, I plan on doing Michiru from Sailormoon on Sunday of MTAC (I might use the dark green verison from the Sailormoon Musical). While asweetermelody is going to be Haruka and she might need the uniform designs too for Haruka. But, she'll find a way, since I wanna pose in the school uniforms! XD Well..Goodnight and Happy new year!
~Hikaru =P

Febuary:
Today was the most weirdest day because Basic Writing got its kick off a little late and my Music Appericiation teacher wasn't here today! :P But, I'm ok with it, because I had an idea that he wasn't here. ^^ Go sneaky Hikaru! XD Anyway, so I'm stuck here until maybe 1:50 before I can go to American History (yay T_T)! Jaa ne! (~.^)> <3

March:
Voice Actors I want to meet:

Vic Mignogna-Edward Elric ^^ *YAY! GO ME!* ~again~
Chris Sabat-Vegeta, Kuwabara, etc..
Richard Ian Cox-Inuyasha and Ranma (male)
Justin Cook-Yusuke, Raditz, etc..
Scott McNeil-Duo, Kouga, etc..
Sean Schmmel-Goku
Kirby Morrow-Miroku, Trowa, etc..
DO Brian Drummond-Vegeta (first season), Milliardo Peacecraft (Zechs), Alan, etc..
Steve Blum-Spike, Mugen, etc.. *~YATTA!!~* ~again~
Chuck Huber- Andriod 17 and Hiei
Lex Lang- Sanosuke
John Burgmeier-Kurama, Tien, etc..
Richard Hayworth-Kenshin
Sonny Strait-Hughes, Krillin :-P
Travis Willingham-Mustang =P
Kyle Hebert-Gohan, Kiba, Falman, Aizen, Ganju
Aaron Dismuke-Alphose Elric
Jeff Nimoy-Wolfwood


I'm bored and I'm up at 2 in the morning! What else is new? I haven't stayed up this late since high school! (Unless I was paranoid). <.< >.>

April:
Ok, first of all, I'm still weirded out by my dream last night! I kept waking up IN my dream! O.o But anyway, it was ambition since 7th grade to become a voice actress, right? YES!! But I don't know if I can continue to persue that ambition anymore, since I have a bigger music background more than acting. :P What can I say? I love music! It's my thing and it's also my thing to be creative, but I'm not that great. ^^() I can write scripts, however!! >D But, I'm more of a music person anyway! But doesn't dubbing take timing? O.o I'll take some acting classes to be on the safe side! But until then, I'm stuck with more of this and that. XP But I still want to meet some voice actors I haven't met yet (YES, THAT INCLUDES JOHNNY YONG BOUSCH)!!! But for now, I leave you with my ramblings! Later! ;P

May:
Yeesh... I'm not ready for History exams. UoU() I'm so far behind in that class that I know that I'm failing it! But, other than that, I'm promoting my singing (welcome to Hikaru's crappyland)! Check my page out! http://www.myspace.com/hikarumusic19 (Thanks! Hope you like it! :D) I'm SOOO ready for Music Appericiation, but not History. -_-() I might as well admit that I'm lazy! I know that for a fact that I'm lazy school wise (though I try not to stress about it)! ARGH!! DX I want that memory stick so I can get my paper done! If I don't, then I fail! ; ; It's sad how lazy I am.. But, I'll leave this alone before I rant on anymore than I have already! Bai! (^o^)/

June:

The end..

July:
Yes, it's that time to promote my ass off about the Sparklers! I mean, COME ON!!! Who doesn't love Ayame Sohma? ^-^; The good news is that I got a myspace page for the Sparklers! W00T! Promotional words.. "JOIN THE SPARKLERS!!!"




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I swear, this group is smaller than most of the voice actor groups out there! ; ; This sucks! But I must promote my ass off if I want to make this group grow! But the only problem is getting people to join it! TT^TT Maybe I'm not very good at promoting. -_-; But I'm trying my best!!! DX The good news is.. I FINALLY GOT ULTRA BLUE!! YAAAAY!! Yay for "BLUE"! ^^ But, jaa ne for now!

August:
Well, I'm not going to AFO this year! But there's always next year and such. :P I say that because I wanna meet Chris Sabat as well as meet Sonny Strait and meet Travis again. ゜゜(´□｀。)°゜HO-HUM.. (´ω｀。) But oh well, I can always get MTAC to invite them there!!! >D But we'll see about that, considering that I haven't updated my livejournal in GOD KNOWS HOW LONG!! o(>O<)o But, I'm not complaining! :D Except this sucks that I can't go to out-of-state cons this year!! (T-T)But we'll see. バイバア~~イ！！(^O^)/

September:
This sucks.. I just came back from my first APSU game and I wish that my family were there to support me.. My life just sucks like that (I know my mom would of been there for me). But, I just suck like that because NO ONE WAS! >.< I'm disappointed about my whole life (except for the support that I have). But other than that, I'm disappointed that NO ONE WAS THERE TO SUPPORT ME! =( But I guess I'm just ranting again..

October:
The good news is that I finally got the haircut I wanted!! =D Since everybody loves my short hair (expect for a douchebag I know), I plan on keeping it. :)


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Well.. I'm done here.. じゃあね～！！

November:
I don't know what to do with my life anymore.. I can't complete my music stuff and I can't keep my head straight.. I'm confused as hell and I feel really bad for all the shit I've done. Maybe I shouldn't be worrying about music. That was my BIGGEST mistake. I should be concentrating on my core studies before I actually worry about my music studies. Why did I make this mistake?? I've decided that I'm gonna take care of my core classes before I worry about what I should be majoring in.. That's all I have to say. Also.. Someone that I know pointed out to me that I'm an unfocused individual. I've been unfocused for as long as I remember.. The true question I should ask everyone is, "should I be even ATTENDING college?"

December:
My boyfriend wants to come to my brother's wedding.. But, he wants me to ask him if he can come along.. The problem is that I'm afraid that both he and his fiance are gonna say no. What should I do?

Ok.. I want to see Matt because I miss him. Most of all, I want to visit his family on the 22nd and I want him to go see mine on Christmas Eve. I think the only problem out of the two is, "How in the hell are we getting there??" Yeah, the ride is the only problem.. Problem number 2, my dad doesn't see me as an adult. Nor does he see Emily as an adult.. He's stuck back in the generation of when women were just housewives and had to take care of the kids. He doesn't realize that the world's changing and that we're growing up. It saddens me that he doesn't see me as an adult.. Now that I think about it, I don't know if my mom sees me that way either.. Christmas is coming up and I haven't gone Christmas shopping yet!! >.< I need to start with Christina's gift!! Then, I'll get what I've been planning to get everybody.. Other than that, I wish Emily the best of luck for the rest of her life. Merry Christmas, Emily! ^_^